I wake up early and run and meditate and turn my laptop on around 7. I work all day until 6, and then turn my laptop off at 6 everyday. My current morning ritual is wake up @ 4, drink green tea, read for like 30 mins, run 2 miles, take a cold shower, meditate for 20 mins and then start my work. I feel like by never admitting it out loud, I've secretly been in denial about the seriousness of my addiction. Feel free to reach to let us know if you have any comments or questions. SOUR after trying to start a conversation with them, and just treat you like crap (wich i really don't understand since i feel they should be flattered that we men would walk up to THEM. They set a token countdown and when it is reached they begin and perform as long as they like.





You set yourself goals to get back to "normal" even though for many rape victims that is an overwhelming challenge. Most of the stuff that I typed today in my story, I don't even really ever think about. Even typing out the story today makes my addiction so glaringly obvious. Time has a way of healing even the worst hurts. Otherwise, your brain is exhausted every time you decide between doing A or B. Routines are fucking crucial to keep your willpower up, helping you to save your brain power for decisions that actually matter. I don't trust myself or my willpower anymore. I know from experience, that when I'm tired, my willpower is especially weak. So everytime I resist an urge, I know I've created a new pattern of behavior to be performed during that trigger. What's bad is succumbing to the urge, and defaulting to your old, unhealthy conditioned pattern of behavior. As i mentioned earlier, never underestimate an urge, make sure you immediately dive into your new pattern of behavior, but at the same time, fearing urges is also counterproductive. I used to dread getting urges, but now I know that by fearing them, I give them power.



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My plan for beating this demon is keeping my brain and body in tip top shape. Here's what I plan to do when I get another one of these uncontrollable urges. While the report has gained steam on social media, the database, methods, or indeed any proof of the projects existence has yet to be made public, but according to Motherboard, creators plan to make 'database schema' and 'technical details' available soon. As long as I make time to grow and heal, I'm ready to handle any fucking urge. Every time I've relapsed before, it's because I start slipping on the little things. But she is immediately put off by the slow start. Because when I start slipping on those disciplines, everything else eventually goes as well. Furthermore, I'm trying to tap into my inner competitiveness as well. Furthermore, all negative emotion makes your brain weaker. If I don't have a routine, and I'm trying to "force" myself to be productive, my brain will be fried and then when that urge inevitably punches me in the face, I won't be ready to resist it. You need to keep your brain in the best fucking shape possible.